Monday, December 26, 2005

Christmas is FINALLY over. Whew.
This has been the most emotionally draining holiday ever.
Nothing too spicy to write about now, I've not been in the mood to fuck around what with Daddy leaving. Been depressed but, to be honest, I see that passing soon.
I cant go without sex and it doesnt matter how sad I am mentally/emotionally, I still need cock.

I got TONS of goodies for christmas. I cant wait to try them out. *giggle* Especially that huge glass dildo with the flogger on the handle. *drool*

Anyone interested in helping me try it out? *Evil Grin*

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

It's been a long and emotionally draining time for me. My boyfriend left for Kuwait and now it just seems like everything is "blah".
I know it's depression, but...I dont know. It's also that not only is my boyfriend gone but so is my best friend in the whole world AND my partner in crime.
I was a slut before Damon...but He's the one that took down my walls and barriers and showed me truly what I am. How I could be. What I was made for.
I must admit, though, He made our last weekend together amazing, two truly romantic days filled with soft touches and gentle kisses. *melt* And that was only Friday and Saturday.
Sunday? Oh. My. God.
My body is still bruised and aching.
He picked out this hot little black dress for me to wear and picked out a favorite pair of my knee boots and we went to Christies.
I love the girls at Christies Caberet in Nashville. The women there are -very- hot but at the same time, they dont have the whole "You're nothing but a dollar bill" attitude.
Real women. Very hot.

And the men that chill there? Fine.
And horny. =)
We went in with a few bottles and I got to do a few lines...they were off the hook busy. I never knew Sunday night at a strip joint would be busy. Go firgure. lol
I love going to places like that with Daddy...the women flock to Him. He's well groomed, always smells good and always looks nice. Mmmmm. I'm such a lucky slut to have the Man that I have. Add to it we're somewhat regular there so we get treated very well.
So we sat back and mingled, some of His friends showed up since this was His going away party, of sorts.
We drank too much and smoked too much, things started getting hazier and hazier, so many lap dances, and I had been flirting and teasing all of them. Dadddy, Jefferson, Ron and Maurice. Each and every one of them knew me in every sense. Maurice likes to piss down my throat. Ron is an ass man and likes to hear me sqeel when he pounds my ass. (Also fond of ass to mouth, lol) Jefferson...Hmmm, how do I put this. He loves to hate white girls. Loves to fuck us till we break so he can just cum on ya, wipe his dick off and leave. And of course, Daddy loves every aspect of fucking me.
He leaned over and talked with them for a bit while I wandered around...sitting on random laps, just being a naughty slut, knowing that Daddy was watching me the whole time. I grinded on cocks and showed myself off for half the men in that club. lol, It was actually really fun.
Finally someone grabbed me by my arm and tugged me, it was Jefferson.
The way that man looks at me. It makes me shiver and cringe at the same time. The guy whos lap I was sitting on, he got kinda pissy and then Jefferson told him that he was going to take me home and fuck the shit out of me. The guy joked around and said something like "I want in on that" and then Jefferson gives this guy his address. Told him to bring his friends but blacks only.
I think I instantly wanted to cum, right there. A knot twisted in my stomach and I started to shiver as Jefferson pratically drags me to our table and laughs, passing me off to Daddy who helped me get my coat on and then slapped my ass hard. Then He smiled at me. His smile can make an iceberg melt. He leans in and kissed my cheek so he could whisper "You're mine and I cherish you more than anything on this planet. You're the reason I'm still here. I love you" and He wrapped His strong arms around me and pulled me close, kissing my face tenderly right there in the most unexpected place in the world. I was so touched. Tears burned in my eyes.
At the same time, I wanted to mount Him right there. lol ANd I could feel how rock hard He was. I whined against His lips and begged Him to please show me one last time with Him for a show me what I was.
He pulled away and nodded. Facial features hardened and His hand slipped along the small of my back and as He guided me out, He tugged up the hem of my dress to show off my ass as we walked out.
We all climbed into Maurices Suburban, and it was almost instant...Daddy jerked my coat off me and yanked my dress so hard that the straps broke and it slipped down to show off my tits. He started pawing at them and told me I knew what needed to be done, I slid down to the floor and buried my face into His crotch while He pulled His cock out. I buried His huge black cock into my mouth and down my throat, I love having Him in my throat. Love the way He grips my head and the noises He makes. Next thing I know my head is lifted and turned just so another cock is shoved into my throat...Jefferson...He just started hammering into my throat, making me scream which only made him go harder and deeper. They were all talking about me as if I werent there. I got passed back to Daddy and He yanks me up to give me a deep kiss. He's so not bisexual, but cant resist the taste of a cock on my mouth. I moved to straddle His legs and took Him into me, riding Him slow, letting His huge length push into me and stretch me. I got so caught up in having Him in me...all the sudden He shoved me off and tucked back in, scowling at me. I had almost made Him cum, which in turn made Him cranky since He had other things in store for me. All I could do was bite my lip and sit there nursing my elbow where it clipped the consol thing between the front seats until we pulled into Jeffersons driveway.
Daddy made me strip naked and walk up the front sidewalk that way. It was freezing.
The moment we walked in, it was like all hell broke loose. Ron grabbed me and shoved me up against the wall and crammed his cock into my pussy, holding me in place by my head, mashing my face to the wall, he thrust deep into me, making me scream, bottoming out in me, then he pulls out of me and grabbed me by my hair and hauled me into the den. I couldnt help but smile when I saw the other three sitting on the couch naked. Jefferson pointed at his dick and I crawled to him to push him into my throat once again.
I get so lost when I'm sucking cock. I concentrate on it totally. Suckling, squeezing my throat. Daddy's trained my throat well for big cock. He kept ramming in and ramming in until I literally puked all over his cock, they all laughed at me which pissed Jefferson off...Then I found out their true plans.
lol, And looking back. I should have known since Daddy loves putting me through extremes.
They ran a train on me. All night. And the guys from the strip club? They showed up too. Each and everyone of them got a turn on me. And when it was all said in done...Nine huge black cocks ended up cumming in me that night, simply because it pleased my Daddy. My body is still bruised. They hurt me in so many ways, but I think the thing I enjoyed the most was how Daddy treated me like I was nothing. And he rarely does that.
And it sucks that it's the last time he'll do that for a year.

Anyways...I'm sorry it's taken so long to post. I've gotten so many emails asking when I was going to post's just taken a few days to write this, add to it the Christmas season.
I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and I hope you all enjoy the post. Will post more later.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Okay, so I said I would post more and I meant it. =)

It's so hard to keep up with everything going on in my life...I have some emotional type, relationship problems right now...(Yes, I have a full-time boyfriend as well.) He loves me the way I am, no matter how nasty and slutty that is AND he encourages it. What a man, huh?)
And I got the work thing...
Then I got some dude sweating me that wasnt even a real good lay. (Get a hint already)

So I had some stress to work I went out this last weekend and got what I deserved. And holy shit, was a little whore or what.

Nine guys that I just sucked. Yummy. Swallowed each and everyone of them like the good like blackcock slave that I am...and I got pounded in half by seven different guys this weekend. lol, And the bad thing about it is, they all know each other.
I prefer that. I like for all the men who get to use me to know each other. I like the thought that they talk about me when I'm not around. About what a dirty little bitch I am...or even making plans.
And that's happened a few times.

The main thing I like about it is, when I'm in the mood to be a filthy whore, they let each other know...I dont even have to go looking for cock. They come and claim me. Mounting me like the little bitch in heat that I am so they can just shoot me so full of cum.

Another thing I want more of is sadistic men. I adore a man who could give a shit about me. Men who love to slap me around because it amuses them. I want them to treat me like the fuck-trash that I am. Hell, I want a man that'll beat me senseless just to hurt me. Not caring about fucking me. Or hurting me so brutally that he can use my limp body while I can do nothing but lay there and take it because he truly beat me into submission.
Oh to have a mean bastard Black Master who liked to mistreat me in every sense of the word.

Do I have issues or what? =D

Oh...and for those who have inquired...I -DO- fuck white guys but only when it's something one of my black Daddies has told me to do. Normally when I get passed around a group, there's always a few white cocks in the mix, and thankfully I've been lucky....Not all white boys got little dicks. =)
That and we all know the fuel in which they use me. I'm garbage. I'm a filthy cumrag for big black cocks and they resent that. It makes them angry and outraged, even if that black man is their friend...they see how my body was made for black use and they feel they have to push me harder.
Some of my favorites sadists are white men. They abuse me ruthlessly. I adore it.

(So I wrote this the other night when I came home to no internet after I promised I'd write more.)

Now I must go get ready for work. It's my "Friday".

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

I'm telling you what, when it rains it pours. Life is hectic.
The upcoming holidays are going to be a bitch...I can just feel it.

I'm no where near the money I need to get my car repaired...and I need to hurry up and do that since the insurance companys check is only good for 120 days. So that means I have to work more. Trying to have fun AND work all the time is almost too much for this girl.

Almost. =P

Oh, by the way. I know you read Jennifer and I just want you to know that....I'm tired of it all. Really. I am. You're my best friend, girl, but your lifestyle has to change if you want me in it. I was really uncomfy the other night and I didnt really appreciate it. I'm hurt. Both physically and emotionally thanks to you, your roommates and that filthy habit you all god. When you dry up and are off that meth shit then give me a holler. Until then? Lose my number.
I mean it. We've been friends long enough that you should automatically have my back in any situations that I need you. You failed me and our friendship.
That hurts.


I have no clue what to get anyone for christmas. I suck when it's shopping for someone else. lol

Believe it or not, I had been a good girl for a bit. That suprised me, but finally this weekend I got the fun I deserved. lol
I should learn how to say no sometimes.
I think I give off this vibe that men pick up and it's like they instantly know. Sometimes it's frightening..
I went over to my co-workers house to see if she wanted to hit the mall with me, we had some stuff to get for work, to decorate...but she wasnt there. That kind of sucked since I drove ALL the way over there when she said she would be there.
Her dad was cool about it, invited me in to smoke with him and his brother in law, next thing I know, I'm being a filthy little cockcuff for them...It was BY FAR, the best, most aggressive threesome I've been in, in such a long time. We smoked and then I kind of just hung out and listened to them talk...about what I dont really remember. I was mostly chilling? lol
I asked if they minded if I grabbed a glass of water, then went into the kitchen and her uncle came in and just grinded up against me. I knew right then that I was going to get it. lol
And that's not a bad thing, really, her dad and uncle are majorly hot..well, in my opinion. i like older men. *shrug*
So there we were in the kitchen, he's grinding on me, arm hooked around my pelvis, tugging me back and her dad came in and just laughed and commented that he just knew I was a slut.
Next thing I know, my jeans are shoved down and I'm bent over the table while they take turns pushing their HUGE dicks into me. omg. Huge. Wide and long. And fuck were they rough with me. Slapping me, yanking my hair, scratching, slamming me against shit. Finally at one point, I'm laying on the floor, gasping for air, covered in sweat and her dad grabbed me by my hair and literally drug my by my head to the garage, they finished me off right there on that filthy floor. Ram fucking me for hours, until I was crying and begging for a break, my throat was raw and I could taste blood. Both had came multiple times in both my coochie and my ass.
Then they finished off by pissing all over me. omg. That was so nasty. lol
I fucking loved it. I'm totally going to go visit again sometime. lol
I swear it when I said that's the BEST threesome ever. Now if I could get some moresomes like that. =D
Yesterday I was laying down before work, half asleep when I got a whiff of cologne and work up disorented and half out of it as someone straddled me. I was laying on my tummy...and without even knowing, or caring...I grinded back, I had no clue it was Clif until He turned me over to let me suck Him...after fucking me to three orgasms.
He had me pinned to the bed with a hand mashing my other cheek to the bed...I spread my legs and whined for a cock that I didnt know who it belonged to. The whole time my heart was pounding in my heart and I was so scared but at the same time, I didnt care. I just wanted cock and I was getting it. Getting my pussy owned by some big black dick while it stretched me out and bottomed out in me. God.
I love the Men in my life! lol So, so, so, sooooooooooooooooo good to me.

Anyways...its been a while since I've wrote and I will totally write more later...but...I'm expecting company. =)
I gotta go get cute. I'll post after work tonight. =)))